|"The bridge to unknown pastures" by Hilary J. England, oil on canvas, 8" x 16" 2016|
My musings and ruminations on death and the journey there, and then beyond, continue. This is another painting I did today, although it's photographed a bit on the dark side (literally and not metaphorically --it's probably just a slight shade lighter when viewing in person as my Canon took the day off and I had to photo with the iPad), it is actually a bit more serene then the other two. I mean my frame of mind was when painting it anyway. For now! For today, but that's cool, because that's all that matters or counts.
I mused about how many "journeys within the journey" we actually take, as people come and go from our lives, some make a little impact, others you will walk with for all of eternity, and the "micro-journeys" we complete help shape us as surely as a chisel in a sculptor's hand. Some of us walk a very traditional path, and the road always seems to be clear and level for these folks. I used to grumble that they were lucky, but now, not so much any more. I'd be the person crashing along the bank, coming up on the bridge head on rather than neatly along the road. I've accepted that as well, and count myself as lucky that I see things maybe a little different than others. Some may say that's "psycho" but I disagree. I don't usually hear voices in my head (not mean ones that tell me to rampage anyway lol) or any other symptoms of disturbia, so I think it's all good. I have a tendency to think and think and think, and sometimes that's not a pleasant thing, but at other times it allows me to really steep myself into the multiple nuances and complexities of a situation, and see the beauty of it, when others don't. That has been the one biggest gift of my life...being able to roll with things, even very ugly or scary situations, and still find beauty and purpose in it.
I'm been gifted with the ability to move through things and still not feel "victimized". Shit happens, to be blunt, and it doesn't always have to be someone's fault, or some cosmic conspiracy against me. Sometimes I will feel self- pity like any other person, but in the end, I can usually see through it, and just let the whole situation go. Give it to God, and just keep on walking. He always fixes things up way better than I could have anyway, so why obsess?
So, there it is for today. Enjoy!!