Porcupines

"Lonely tree on the farm" by Hilary J. England
oil on canvas panel, 8" x 11", 2013

 

I'm a little slow on the uptake today, maybe more coffee will help.  I think it's all the green smoothies I drank yesterday, my body must be in health shock, haha!  Anthony has started on an all juice fast for the next 10 days, and I hear the juice machine whizzing and whizzing as he makes up jar after jar of concoctions, all to be optimally consumed within 12 to 24 hours (or they lose their "value") so whatever is left over in the jar gets poured in my glass.  I'm on veggie overload! You'd think that those veggies are crack, the energy it gives him!  Me, well, they just fill me up, so I guess that's good too.

I was supposed to have a moving sale today, but that's not going to be possible, so I'm lucky I didn't advertise (just rely on foot traffic), or people would be irritated.  I have a large project due on Monday, and need to work on it, plus, I'm not conducting this alone.  Let the other "half" help dissolve our marital life together.  I'm sick of shouldering the load for other people's mistakes.  Anywaaaaaaaaayy....

The weather is slowly coming around, which always bolsters my spirits! The smell of the damp earthy air in the morning is so satisfying, you can smell the new life of flowers bursting through the ground, and it electrifies me.  Spring is always such a welcome time of year, and even in the midst of personal troubles, I can't deny it's power.

I'm hoping to complete this move within the next two weeks, and we still need to get our dresses altered for Jill's wedding, as well as get Anthony's suit, shoes, Noelle's shoes, etc., plus start planning our trip in (parking, etc.), all while wrapping up my last week in this course, and starting another.  I CAN'T WAIT to graduate in June and be done with all of this.  I'm exhausted at this point, but I know the end is in sight...at least for this leg of the journey.

So, enjoy the little painting above, and more to come!

Wind and sun

What a day! The sun is beautiful, but the wind, holy moly!  Almost knocked my car off the road, and that's quite the task, since the Blazer is a little hulk, and not a lightweight.

Moving along toward the MOVE.  I'm trying not to think about all of the little odds and ends that need to be tied up, and just going along, one day at a time, getting what needs to be done out of the way.  At least we remain within the same school district, which is a blessing.

Well, working on another painting, will have it up for tomorrow.

Have a nice evening, and stay anchored!

Spring is springing

"Foggy garden with visitor"
by Hilary J. England
8" x 11" oil on canvas panel

I went out and smelled the fresh, clean air after the torrential rains of this morning, and can say most certainly that Spring is in the air.  I'm excited, and have lots of plans for the next several months, including the possibility of a residency in Sumatra.  That might be pretty cool.

So, I will post up more stuff as I go along, and as I close this chapter of my life up, and emerge as a free woman again!  

Moving is a B*tch!

Moving is a b*tch!  Everything about it sucks!  But, once it's over, a new chapter begins, and new adventures as well.

I have been working on a few little paintings, and pondering a new series, but I will not formally tackle that until we are settled in our new place.  That will take some concentration, and I cannot do that until this chaos is all cleared up.  My divorce should be finalized in three months, my graduation is in two months (and no, I will probably not return for another degree until at least January!), and my lovely sister's wedding is in three weeks, so there are many many things to keep me busy in the next few months, so a new series will have to wait until June to embark on it.

I will however, post up any plein air work I do, so that will keep my mind moving along nicely as well!

So, good night, and I'm looking forward to posting some new work in the next few days.

Amazing freedom!

It's been a while.  I guess I was overwhelmed--cancer threat, flu, various other hideous personal issues...end result:  moving through divorce.

Another divorce.  I loathed the idea, until:  _________.  I hope he and his new woman are happy.  I'll send them a housewarming gift.

So, Jesu!  My life is....my life.  I don't sweat these things any more, because of the pace of things--I remain focused on the prize: My relationship with God, my purpose on this Earth, and of course, the beautiful people I am privileged to know, mostly in the form of family, from all generations.

Do I feel badly? Of course.  How would you feel?  Betrayed.  Plus other feelings.  But, I move on.  Obviously, he didn't love me any more than I loved him....God works in strange ways for us both.  We are both set free from this mess.

I don't hate, any more than I can hope he has no hard feelings toward me.  This year has been incredibly hard: a cancer scare, flu that nearly killed me, other problems, and just when I thought I was through the rain...this.  Oh, but this was probably the worst.  A complete backstab.

I can't dwell on it.  Just move on.  I feel it tomorrow, or another day, just not today.  Today, I have to deal with all of the troubles that today brings, and a backstabbing, wayward, lying husband is not worth it.  Let him deal with his own shortcomings, along with the woman he is with, and who contacted me, to start the ball rolling.  I thank God for the blessing of knowing, and being finally FREE.

So, divorce is not always a bad thing.