|"Orchids" by Hilary J England|
12" x 16" oil on canvas panel
It's two weeks today since Isaac died, and it is Memorial Day. I know we are supposed remember our dead veterans today, and honor them, which I do, but I also remember Isaac, and other people in my family just through sheer association of the name of the day.
It's hard to fathom what happened, but I'm slowly getting there. Things seem to get better each day, slowly, and for that I am grateful.
I did this painting yesterday, one that is not usually in character for me, since I generally loathe still life painting, it's just so static and boring to me. But, with all of the beautiful flowers around in the Spring, and the fact that I wrestled with the idea of flowers in association to funerals, death, and dying, I thought it was actually something that fit where I am right now, while being therapeutic as well.
So, there is my little, out-of-character painting of some orchids or whatever these flowers are that have been stinking up my house if I leave the windows open. I picked a few, and studied them. They are not the enemy, haha. So now, I see they are nothing to have nightmares over.